TL;DR: Gained too much weight after I fell and broke my arm + couldn’t really move for a while. I have a lot of trauma related to sports, like I was forced to play football like any other Hungarian kid, and I was awful at it, which made others be angry at me for it, which made me reluctant to do it. Even if I manage to do it, I often get brutal, crippling muscle pain, which makes me fo it even less.
Since I"m Hungarian, I cannot rely on health care at all, especially mental health, as it was the very first thing that got cut, amd I cannot afford private care.
Don’t worry so much about sports, as finding something you enjoy which gets you moving. The important thing is to try stuff and find something that works for you. Really, the best exercise you can do, is one you will actually do. It sounds like you have issues with team sports, so maybe try some stuff which doesn’t involve other people. Also, accept that you will likely suck as whatever you do, if you keep practicing, you might find you suck less over time.
I’m not a “sports person”. In fact, I suck as most sports I have tried. But, I discovered that I enjoy indoor sport climbing. I sucked amazingly bad at it when I first started. I mostly climb top rope and was struggling to finish a 5.9 climb. But, I kept at it and now I can finish most 5.10a climbs on my first attempt. I’m not some super climber by any means, but I have become kinda competent. I enjoy the challenge and have met some great people along the way. I also get excited when I walk into the gym and see a new set of routes. It’s like being handed a new set of puzzles to solve.