Oh, I’m right there with you, my friend. Emotional immaturity can and does absolutely make personal growth relfection or change, almost impossible. And a hugely toxic and damaging childhood, for any kids involved.
I’m old now, and I’m going to therapy to try and fix some of the deep deep damage, still there. It’s had a hand in messing up everything in my life, it’s frustrating! The most frustrating thing is, it’s built into the foundations, so you don’t see it till it pops up in terrible ways. It’s like playing whack a mole with a soul infecting virus. I’m focusing really hard on breaking generational traumas being passed down, because they’re like that because their needs weren’t met, also. My biggest fear is becoming them.
My parents did way more damage than any propaganda machine in breaking me. It’s always your own family determining your own fate.
But as soon as I try to change anything, there comes the emotional blackmail.
Oh, I’m right there with you, my friend. Emotional immaturity can and does absolutely make personal growth relfection or change, almost impossible. And a hugely toxic and damaging childhood, for any kids involved.
I’m old now, and I’m going to therapy to try and fix some of the deep deep damage, still there. It’s had a hand in messing up everything in my life, it’s frustrating! The most frustrating thing is, it’s built into the foundations, so you don’t see it till it pops up in terrible ways. It’s like playing whack a mole with a soul infecting virus. I’m focusing really hard on breaking generational traumas being passed down, because they’re like that because their needs weren’t met, also. My biggest fear is becoming them.