Even if they’re not difficult, they still feel like a burden, and I’m very worried that I won’t have time to do them or that I’ll forget about them. I either put them off but constantly think about them, or I try to get them done as quickly as possible and get very irritated when something prevents me from doing them. I can never relax if I have things to do, even if they’re not urgent; they’re still a pain in my ass. I don’t know why I feel this way, and I think this is the reason why I avoid difficulties and my life sucks so much.
Thank you, I didn’t say I have problems with time management, my problem is that I can’t live normally while I have unfinished business, and this causes me discomfort. Maybe I’m just lazy.
I believe this statement may be the cause of your discomfort. If you have things to do, and you’re idle, taking a break, a nap, having a meal, or doing something fun, that self talk is going to rear its ugly little head and kill any joy you might be taking in your down time.
So if you’re looking for a more healthy state of being, I’d suggest reflecting on where that comes from. Were you taught that your value is in being constantly productive and that rest is shameful, for example? Find that and learn to quash the influence it has on your self worth. And again, that work is best done with a professional’s help.