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  • tetris11@lemmy.mltoAsklemmy@lemmy.mlHow do you feel ?
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    2 days ago

    Last night I had a mild panic attack for no reason. I think it might have been induced by a mixture of beer and sugar, a combination I don’t do very often.

    I’ve just come out of a long term relationship with someone I thought I would have kids with. She was the best thing that ever happened to me, but somehow that wasn’t enough for me and I wanted out. I still have no idea if I did the right thing, but at least we left as friends who care deeply for each other. The separation was slow and excrutiating but I think we’re both on the road to healing.

    I used to think that if two people love each other, that was enough, but I’ve come to realize than I wanted more than just love, I wanted to feel less lonely in my head, and a severe language barrier was preventing that from happening. With time, we might have gotten there, but with time, I also may have grown to resent her, and so that’s why I ended it. I banked on my pessimism instead of my optimism.

    Time heals all, and I guess we’ve just got to tread water until that time comes. Sorry for the word vomit above, your post apparently struck a chord with me










  • tetris11@lemmy.mltoLemmy Shitpost@lemmy.worldFear
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    3 days ago

    Same, and same. It’s crazy how much you can change in a few years. Phonecalls are fine for me now. Awkward silence, or someone talks over someone else? My worst fear a few years ago. Now? Give a shit. Pretend it didn’t happen and keep the conversation flowing.

    Plus, as inspiration from my mother, I’m quite happy to say goodbye to someone only to then follow up with a question that prompts a five minute extra discussion, followed by yet another goodbye and then a follow up. Oh christ, I’ve become what I date…