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  • JadenSmith@sh.itjust.workstoAsk Lemmy@lemmy.world[Deleted]
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    21 days ago

    Not as severe as the actual condition, however when one of my childhood cats was hit by a car, I tried to check her pulse and blood splurted from her ear onto my hand. For several years afterwards I would constantly wash my hands, moreso when I was stressed/anxious. I would wash them with soap, then wash them again. Sometimes I would dry them, and then go back to wash them again.
    Psychedelics helped me realise the fear of ‘always having her blood on my hands’, in a very serious and confrontational manner to my trauma. It’s difficult to explain the mental journey to rewire the habit away, though ultimately I began to understand an aspect of my plight as a source to the action.









  • Weed and food. The former isn’t a problem, the latter can be.

    When I’m stressed I have to consciously be very aware of my eating. During lockdown I was spending a hundreds per month on just food.
    Within two years after lockdown ending, I managed to lose 36KG. I try my best to keep a good weight, and I’m within acceptable ranges as per the BMI, however every once in a while I would have a bad day and eat an entire extra large pizza to myself for lunch.