I’ve been wondering if the hobbies I’ve been nurturing over the past while are just a distraction from not being able to get ahead in life and that if I were doing better off stability wise would I pursue the same things?

It’s kinda like a weird butterfly effect of “if I wasn’t struggling, would I be doing this still?” And then I question if I’m doing the right thing. Instead of investing time into hobbies or other superficial artistic endeavors, would I be better off by now if I had managed to invest the time into bettering myself, learning marketable skills, looking for better paying work etc?

I feel like it might not be worth overthinking things either, though. Looking into the past probably isn’t helpful. But trying to look to the future has me questioning the past, lol.