Survived is not as binary as it seems when everything you’ve experienced you’ve recovered from. There is an enormous spectrum of alive but only barely. Current medicine is only barely scratching the surface of a complete understanding of biology. A complete understanding of biology is likely millennia away from now. We don’t even have medicine as a real science yet. All medical research is cherry picked and the minimum sigma for medicine is far lower than any other science which means the results are no better than random noise. This is due to medicine as a business instead of a science. No one can help me because it is not viable in the risk assessment any sane neurosurgeon must balance between legal risk and real medicine. I am not an easy fix so spending time to diagnosis me or treat me is not viable business and worth risking the legal implications if things went wrong.

That doesn’t bother me as much as the future homelessness and death in a gutter somewhere because the USA expects me to disappear or die with no right to shelter or food in my condition. When my folks die, I will too shortly thereafter. It is like Nazi gas chambers but worse. People think there is help and some safety net, it makes them feel better, but they don’t actually know what exists or connect the existence of all these homeless people, or large suicide rates to what is reality. That is the hard part.